There are these days...hellish type days, when you physically feel the weight of the attacks that are mounting against you and your family. Days when you can sense the spiritual war waging around you and for you and for your kids. Read Ephesians 6:12 Days when a simple task turns into four wasted hours. When you know that you have a very limited amount of time without kids to accomplish an impossible list, yet roadblocks fill your path no matter how hard you have tried to ready the day. The tasks demand completion, so you press on feeling as if you have accomplished nothing before returning to the chaos of small blessings. Days when you think deeply on the counselors' insight that you might be terrified to walk into the "dark room". You are deathly afraid of this place because you simply don't know what you will find in there, it cannot be managed. You are not sure if you will find HIM there, or if you will be faced with too much bitte...
The purpose of these writings is somewhat selfish, as they work therapy for my weary soul. Here is a place where I can refocus (purposefully) on HOPE and GOD'S TRUTH, over what I am feeling. Now, I don't believe that feelings are wrong; what I do believe is that feelings are great followers and unstable leaders. I pray that you might encounter The Savior who loves me, has protected and guided me through my valley of the shadow of death.