Ok, I feel like I try to be very honest about losing a spouse, grief, and single motherhood. This is going to be a hard post to post because it touches a place in my heart I don’t really talk about much, except for those closest to me. I am choosing to post it because I know that there is another out there who deals with the same emotions that I do and I want you to find encouragement in knowing that you are not alone. Single parenting can feel like the loneliest place on earth. When you gather in settings where there is supposed to be the typical nuclear family and you are alone with your crew, the forces of evil will do their very best to sideline you with feelings of inadequacy and loneliness, even shame. Almost no single parent that I know wanted to be living the reality that they are. I used to have stereotypical prejudices about single parents. Of course, they were only thoughts, because I would never have verbalized what I was thinkin...
The purpose of these writings is somewhat selfish, as they work therapy for my weary soul. Here is a place where I can refocus (purposefully) on HOPE and GOD'S TRUTH, over what I am feeling. Now, I don't believe that feelings are wrong; what I do believe is that feelings are great followers and unstable leaders. I pray that you might encounter The Savior who loves me, has protected and guided me through my valley of the shadow of death.